The oddness of my image creation quirks

Even though it's not my scholastic or career ambition anymore, I still enjoy creating imagery greatly. Even though everybody in my family and most people that I would say I'm friendly with likely know that I draw and paint, can't say that I'm comfortable with most people watching me draw or paint. When I'm really into creating an image it's like meditation. I'm too busy attempting to articulate my thoughts visually to notice people. Of course the question of "what are you drawing/painting/doing on that piece of..." comes up and I'm pulled out a bit. I've developed a comfort of drawing with people noticing if it's a portrait for close friends or family. Still get a little squirmy drawing around more distant friends. The only exception to that is if I decide in a moment that I have to draw, damn who's looking. Then I end up comfortable drawing around those people.

Also, when I'm traveling I like bringing my drawing stuff with me. Preferably, I'd like to have them on hand with me so that if something catches my eye, I can sit down and draw it. Of course, this doesn't always coexist peacefully while vacationing with people interested in being on the move constantly, and generally from retail space to another retail space. I really wanna be able to vacation by myself. I get a little deterred when I think about all the washroom supplies I'd have to bring just to function normally. It seems like it would almost make more sense to move to a place I want to visit for a few months and then come back to Vancouver. Now that I think about it, that's not such a bad idea. I'll keep that dream in mind for the future. I've thought for a long time that I'd prefer to get to know the sensibility of a place and the people as opposed to only going to the tourist sites. I'd do the tourist thing too but try to focus on the everyday.

That's been enough wordiness for now.
It's my Mom's birthday today.

was just cleaning up some stuff in my room and found some old drawings of mine. maybe I'll scan and post them up here or maybe not. I'll decide later.